Today is daylight savings and we "spring ahead" but I'm still feeling like I'm falling behind. Today was great, I'm just pooped and that is after a two hour nap for myself. We haven't made any real headway in getting the kids into their own room let alone getting them to sleep without nursing or pacing. Tonight, the husband took the girl downstairs while I got the boy to sleep. Usually he is asleep within minutes but tonight he struggled to settle down. I slipped out of bed and noticed that the husband and girl are downstairs in the dark. Usually she screams if he tries to get her to go to sleep but tonight all is quiet so I sit here in the office only lit by the glow of my monitor waiting to see if he can get her into bed without her waking up.
It seems like this is harder than it needs to be. I feel like I've messed up somewhere along the way and trying to fix it is so hard. I'm so chronically sleep deprived that I can no longer remember what it feels like to be well rested. I am amazed that I could actually sleep this afternoon. Recently I've been unable to nap during the day. It is so frustrating to line things up so that I can go upstairs and get time to nap and then lay there in bed tossing and turning or bouncing right on the edge of sleep but still keenly aware of what is going on downstairs. I think I may have to go back to using earplugs.
Bah! Spring is on the way and I'm really looking forward to warmer, sunnier weather. It actually snowed here today? WTF?!? I think that Vancouver gets a light dusting on snow in March so I'm hoping that this is it for the year and we can move on to spring for real. I'm ready to spring ahead!
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